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My Greatest Adventure

Hello from San Francisco <3

I’m sure some of you have noticed that I haven’t been posting much on my blog these last few months, and it’s not because I haven’t wanted to – I mean, how can I not? I’ve been away from Manila for almost 6 months now, and as you’ve probably seen on my Instagram feed, I’ve been having a lot of fun re-exploring San Francisco and my beloved Vancouver. Really, there’s so much to write about.

And yet, I haven’t been able to because in my heart I have a much bigger story to tell, and I think it needs to be told first.

So how about we take a look at the other side of #cgltravels, shall we?

It's not always a bed of roses :)
It’s not always a bed of roses 🙂

The truth is, my ‘vacation’ hasn’t all been a bed of roses. In fact, quite literally, there have been some pricks from sharp thorns in the shape of injection needles that my doctors, nurses and my own husband have had to administer.

Amidst all the “roadtrippin’ and piggin’” we’ve been enjoying, there have also been visits to an infertility clinic in San Francisco where we have been seeing one of the best specialists in the world.

With our doctor, Christo Zouves, who came highly recommended :) I even read his book: "Expecting Miracles" (Thank you, Cara!) which I highly recommend you do, too, if you or someone you love is going through the challenges of infertility
With our doctor, Christo Zouves, who came highly recommended 🙂 I even read his book: “Expecting Miracles” (Thank you, Cara!) which I highly recommend you do, too, if you or someone you love is going through the challenges of infertility

Did you know that the stress levels of people who suffer from infertility are equivalent to those of people with cancer? I read that little piece of trivia somewhere as my circumstances have forced me to do the research. And unfortunately, when it is ‘unexplained’ (like ours), it makes it that much more difficult.

All our tests from two different countries suggest that nothing is wrong, which probably sounds like good news right? But in our case, it makes it even more frustrating because when there are no reasons, it’s even harder to find the solutions.

It's not as painful as it looks
It’s not as painful as it looks
I think I can now say that I'm a pro at injecting myself :D
I think I can now say that I’m a pro at injecting myself 😀

So, at this point, I really, really, REALLY just have to thank God for giving me a great (and slightly twisted) sense of humour, and the ability to see the good in every situation. It is this gift of an unwavering positive spirit that has truly given me the strength to soldier on.

Bruised (and bloated), but not broken
Bruised (and bloated), but not broken

I’ve often heard from women around me, how giving birth has been their most life changing event; how having a baby expanded their worlds and their hearts to a size immeasurable, and how they are no longer the same person having looked into the eyes of their own child.

I believe them.

And how I also wish that that could be my own story.

My family and friends will be the first to tell you that I always manage to find something to laugh and smile about. In this case though, I had a little help from my doctors who pumped me up with stuff that made me feel 'happy', haha!:)
My family and friends will be the first to tell you that I always manage to find something to laugh and smile about. In this case though, I had a little help from my doctors who pumped me up with stuff that made me feel ‘happy’, haha!:)

Instead, my path has been different. But I have to say that I, too, am no longer the same person. And I, too, have had my world and my heart expand, because a journey through infertility will really do that to you. Whether you like it or not, it will push your boundaries of comfort and painfully test you emotionally, physically and spiritually in ways you can never imagine, unless you yourself are going through it, which I fervently hope you’re not.

My family, my ROCK. La familia Gabriel and la familia Lim
My family, my ROCK. La familia Gabriel and la familia Lim

But if you are, then I want you to know that this post is dedicated to you, because I wrote this piece in case somebody out there is going through what I’m going through, except maybe not feeling as strong, or as hopeful, or as loved. And I hope my story will comfort you and perhaps trigger in you a deeper sense of faith.

Last but not the least, this post is also dedicated to my love, Matthew, because it’s our wedding anniversary, and because we’ve come so far, and it makes me so proud that we’ve been able to get through this, not only hand in hand, but also with a smile and a chuckle. Indeed, this is probably what our elders meant when they told us marriage is a LOT of work, and now the vows we made to each other, on this day 6 years ago, have never felt more real and more sacred.

6 months ago, we closed our eyes and jumped head first into the greatest of all our adventures,

Just us :)
Just us 🙂

and though the road has been very long, the journey has certainly been beautiful.

Love,

Celine

26 comments

  1. Katrina Burrows says:

    Dearest Cel, there are no words to express how happy I am for you and Matt. In the 25+ years that I’ve known you, you have always had the gift of humor, of seeing the glass half full, of strength, of joy and of love. You and Matt are in my thoughts as you celebrate 6 beautiful years together. Onwards and upwards, my dearest friend. I love you and I am so proud of you.

    • Remedios Aboitiz says:

      Dearest Celine,

      This is Tita Meding and my own daughter, Nicole, had to go thru what you are going thru. It took 11 years to get their daughter and now they have a son. Never lose hope and have faith in God.

      Much love❤

      • Celine says:

        Hi Tita,

        I know 🙂 Nicole has been so sweet, giving me advice and cheering me on 🙂 We also share the same doctor in Manila, Dr. Ancheta 🙂
        So nice to hear from you! Thank you for reading my post 🙂

        Celine

  2. Gladys Lim says:

    Hugs! I also went to Dr. Zouves. We have one kid now; but our journey is not easy as well. We just ended our ivf journey trying to have our 2nd child but have sadly and repeatedly failed. We also have our different stories and faith and hope. You come out a slightly different person but a better and stronger couple for that. Thank God for our hubbies. I pray for your strength in your journey. Let me know if you want someone to talk to… Hugs!

    • Celine says:

      Hi Gladys!

      Oh wow, I didn’t know! Were you in SF, too these last few months? Happy for you that you had at least one successful journey with Dr. Zouves. What a blessing. And you’re right, we definitely come out a different person. Funny how what should probably have been a sad point in my life has actually been one of the best and happiest. God really moves in mysterious ways. Anyway, I shall keep you in my prayers as well. And yeah! Let’s get together one time, catch up and exchange IVF stories, haha!

      Celine

      • Gladys Lim says:

        That would be nice. When you get back to Manila. Here’s my number if you need someone to bounce things off +639175009248. We ended trying Dec 2015 after like maybe 8 tries with Zouves. So we just ate and ate haha! So now for me, it’s like paying it forward helping other couples who are having some trouble getting pregnant. Hope to get to exchange ivf stories with you soon. Hugs and will utter a prayer for you and your hubby as well.

        Gladys

  3. AVA says:

    This is so beautiful, Celine! I pray that God gives you the miracle that you’ve always wished for. I have an aunt who went through the same thing. She tried for so many years and at last after more than a decade and an adoption later, God blessed her with little one. 🙂

    But more than the little miracle, I pray that God always keep you and your husband stronger than ever. 🙂 Looking at you guys just makes me feel so much love and I hope God keep you both through the bad and good times. 🙂 May this journey continue to be a happy one!

    Miss you, Celine!

    • Celine says:

      Hi Ava! Hopefully that will be my story too 🙂 But anyway, let’s see what God has in store for us at the end of this adventure. Whatever happens…I know it will lead me where I need to be. Thanks for going out of your way to message me! And thanks for reading my blog, hehe! Naks! Feels good to have a real professional blogger read my story 🙂

  4. Earth says:

    Hi Celine,
    Thank you for sharing your story. A lot of people indeed doesn’t know our stories until we share them. You are brave to have shared yours with all of us. I pray God give you the gift you and your hubby have been wanting soon. I have friends who were in your situation and I am so happy for them now they have their own bundle of joy to complete them. Keep believing and keep inspiring. Hugs.

  5. tata garcia- long says:

    Love you my dear! i know i don’t see you guys often or as close as friends as my brothers are to you guys. but I have always looked up to you! and reading your blog gives more reason for others to look up to you as well. love you cel and may the Lord bless you ABUNDANTLY!

  6. Jill Kierulf Santos says:

    Love you, Cel!!! Beautiful piece you wrote. If there’s anyone, you know I relate with you the most. I have faith you will be blessed with a gift from heaven soon. Must feel like a big load of your shoulders to finally get it all out of your chest, your years of silence (me included lol). All this hard work well pay off I’m sure about it.

  7. Jill Kierulf Santos says:

    Love you, Cel!!! Beautiful piece you wrote. If there’s anyone, you know I relate with you the most. I have faith you will be blessed with a gift from heaven soon. Must feel like a big load off your shoulders to finally get it all out of your chest, your years of silence (me included lol). All this hard work will pay off I’m sure about it.

  8. Nikki Valero says:

    We are rooting for you Cel. If there is one person I know who has the strength and will to succeed in this challenge, it is you. Always filled with love and happiness and always ready to give the same to others. You and Matt will definitely reap the rewards of your sacrifice soon.
    Love always..😊

  9. Clarisse Chiongbian says:

    Beautiful, Cel. ❤️ Thank u for sharing ❤️ I’m sure this will help girls going thru the same journey. Praying that you and Matt get your wish soon. Happy anniversary to my favorite couple- stay strong, you two. Cel, keep shining and inspiring the way u do! Love u!

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